ABC’s of Me
(In a snapshot: Activist, Beleaguered, Creative, Dreamer, Eccentric, Femme, Gracious, Humanist, In Love, Jokester, Kind, LGBTQ, Matriarch, Neurotic, Ostentatious, Poetess, Queer, Reasonable, Southern, Theorist, Universally Connected, Visible, Willful, Xeric, Yielding, Zealotry)

A – Activist. The things that I ‘do’ in a normal day may not look like activism, but 75% of what I speak is activism. Encouraging the downtrodden to stand up, reiterating every person’s right to voice, and a refusal to swallow tyranny no matter how it’s masked isn’t something I actively do, despite beliefs by those closest to me to the contrary, it really is just how my brain process information.

B – Beleaguered. I feel inundated with human rights violations, corrupt governance and deliberate acts of inhumanity, and while I do feel beleaguered a majority of the time, I don’t feel hopeless. I know things can be changed, it just takes enough people gaining awareness.

C – Creative. Most definitely in my words and visualizations, but even so with what I’m able to do with raw materials. I have a knack for repurposing things and finding beauty where it can easily be overlooked. It’s the creative side of me that allows my brain to think in curves and squiggles, when my rational mind is always looking for the shortest distance between two objects.

D – Dreamer. People that tell you it’s frivolous to dream have become out of touch with how progress and evolution work. Dream big. Dream freely, and dream often. Then begin to manifest it, even if you can’t see how it will come to be. Someone else may have the missing piece of the dream.

E – Eccentric. I was raised in such a sheltered and isolated environment that I’ve always been attracted to anything that stood out, wasn’t ‘ordinary’, and was unlike anything I’d ever seen before. It extends beyond clothing, beyond décor, beyond music and art, and really penetrates most of my tastes.

F – Femme. High Femme whenever I can deem appropriate. I love being a woman, I love being feminine, and the people that choose to underestimate me because of it, only do so once. I can embrace every part of being a woman that is a joy to embrace, and still be powerful, educated, and successful. The days of women having to choose one or the other are over. And I’m addicted to queer’d masculinity.

G – Gracious. It may seem out of place that a shock jock style Femme Dyke would be gracious, but I am. I don’t ever require acknowledgement or grace from others, but I have found that I am much more peaceful with myself, when I can extend to people, that which they may not have the ability to extend. You never know what could be going on with someone, and I try to curb knee jerk reactions when at all possible.

H – Humanist. I believe that all people should be treated equally and without the encroachment of religion. The way we interact with each other shouldn’t be based on a personal belief that is subjective depending on what circles you are in, but rather on the undeniable truth that we are all human and worthy of the same basic human and civil liberties that make living worthwhile.

I – In Love. With a beautiful human being that loves me beyond my flaws and can see past my struggles, and keeps me focused on my goals. Someone that carries me when I’m weak, holds my hand when I’m scared, and praises me the most when I succeed. Someone as dedicated to our family I as I am, and works very hard with me every day, to foster love, acceptance and awareness, not just with each othus.smallerer, but for everyone around us too.

J – Jokester. Always got jokes. Always trying to make someone laugh, and I’m not afraid or unwilling to go an extra mile to do it. Releasing all those happy chemicals into someone’s brain makes me feel like a serotonin faerie.

K – Kind. It’s really not a weakness and it’s absolutely free to give, there’s always an ample supply, and you can usually shape any situation with a dose of it.

L – LGBTQ member. Proud & Visible.

M – Matriarch. Now the tribe in question consists of my Fiance, my cat Mother Fucker Jones, Bella the yorkie, and Mia the Chihuoodle (Chihuahua/ mini poodle mix), and it’s not about power, but being the driving female force nonetheless.

N – Neurotic. I could lie and say ‘only in a cute way’, but I can’t even make myself type that sentence out. I like to have all the bases covered. I like all options considered, and I like all outcomes weighed. It’s just not always viable. Learning to let things go is a valuable lesson I’m learning.

O – Ostentatious. I love to share knowledge. LOVE to share bazar or unknown facts about a myriad of things that can sometimes come off as ostentatious. The key difference is I rarely do it for attention, but more out of a desire to impart knowledge or humor. I love to get laughs and I have been known to speak in extremes to register a point.

P – Poetess. Often described as flamboyant or inflammatory, my perspective on the world is experienced through a poet’s vision. All life is a story being played out and being able to see the hidden nooks and crannies within the soul of a moment, make it impossible to not have that reflected in everything I create. Not all of my poetry is contained in poems, it’s contained in everything I do.

Q – Queer. This goes way beyond sexuality and really encompasses a way of living and thinking. There’s an attraction to all things queer that I have found as a queer person. It doesn’t mean that I prescribe to every brand of queerness, but I definitely see merit and pride in all of it.

R – Reasonable. For someone that can be creative and fanciful, I have an absolute hunger to be knowledgeable and informed. I am open to reason in any form it’s delivered, even if I don’t’ logically draw those conclusions, if it comes from a place of reason and not paranoia hyperbolic rhetoric.

S – Southern. Being southern explains my issues as much as it explains my triumphs. It’s a very manipulative, double message women are conditioned with in the south. I see more and more of them breaking free from that, and it gives me hope. What’s interesting is that as much as I despise the southern influence in my life, it’s undeniably helped shape who I am.

T – Theorist. Not conspiracy mind you, but from a sociological and psychological perspective. I’m pursuing all degrees in psychology, but see a specialization in sociology and gender & sexual identities in my future.

U – Universally connected. You can call me kooky, I’ve been called much worse, but we are all on this spilling rock together, so we have at least one common denominator, and I’d be willing to be we have more.

V – Visible. It’s very easy, and very common for Femmes to be overlooked in the LGBTQ world, just as they are in the heterosexual world. We walk in the world, invisible to people that look directly at us. So I insert my Femmeness, my Queerness and my OUTness into every situation I can, not only so that I can be visible, but so that Femme can be a Visible existence as well.

W – Willful. Will may just very well be the most powerful force on earth. I’ve seen it accomplish many things. Some great. Some atrocious. All driven by someone’s will.

X – Xeric. What? I’m often thirsty.

Y – Yielding. There are times when, for the greater good, it is necessary to yield. As humans we have to be willing to be vulnerable and wrong, even when we’re sure we are neither, and let people be where they chose to be.  Yielding doesn’t detract from your position, or belie who you are.

Z – Zealotry. I actually detest this quality in human beings, and it’s the fastest way to lose the right to speak to me. But it’s a pretty cool Z word!